So I made a B in the class I thought I would make a C in and an A in the computer class. Yeah, good job for me. I did great on my finals which is what saved my hide. I dropped out of school though because it was killing me. I hope to resume in the Spring of 11, but we shall see if that happens. Mostly because if my teaching job goes full time, I won't have time to go to school for real.

I had a relapse. It was a stupid thing. I got upset about something and the stinkin' thinkin' kicked in. Of course I found myself at a liquor store, dumb me. It's like a whole different personality kicked in...I just didn't care. But I finished the bottle, called my sponsor and got sober all over again. New sober date 9/11/2010. What a horrible date. Oh well, at least I am back on track and in swift manner. Not so many are lucky. Tiger was afraid we were in for a long haul. I got an appointment with RedCorn and RedCorn and I talked about my stinkin' thinkin'. It was a powerful appointment. She is a real good therapist.

I am looking forward to the AA Retreat this coming weekend. I really need it. It should be a blast from what I hear. Maybe I should take a bag of Depends! Just joking. Well, that is all the news for now. I have work I must be doing.

Well, I did amazingly well in both my classes. I wrote those papers and made 100%'s on both. What a miracle. But I was so tired that I dropped school. I hope to pick it up again in the Spring. I just had to take a break, besides, my therapist was shaking her finger at me tellling me that I needed to drop school for my own sake.

I sure like my therapist, I'll call her Redcorn because she looks so much like she could be the sister of John Redcorn on King of the Hill. She is so beautiful, physically I mean. Even Tigar says so. Redcorn is so pretty on the eyes, not to mention such a good therapist. I like her alot. I think she is the best therapist I have ever had...and not just because she is so pretty.

I have been enjoying lecturing to my class. I have this one student who is smart as a whip. She knows her stuff. Unfortunately, she got herself in a bind with harvesting rather than coming to class. I almost had to fail her. Fortunately I found a loophole so she is able to catch up, but I told her this was the only time I was going to do this. I don't want to be taken advantage of.

My other job is having a rough spot. Somehow I have gotten behind. Don't know how that has happened. This weekend I am really going to have to put to it. I just don't see how I got behind.

As for my mental health, I've gone crazy. I am having problems, the old ones have cropped up. My poor therapist is really earning her keep. Tiger and I are hanging in there in spite of the hard times. We will be going on a retreat soon. We are hoping it will help us. I know the problem is all me, but it puts alot of strain on poor Tiger. I just feel like I am going crazy again. You would think with all the drugs I am one I would feel just peachy, but I don't. Redcorn says I have a problem that is deepseated and needs worked on. I nearly laughed myself off the couch.

Well this is just an update on my life. Nothing interesting. I sure could use a trip somewhere. I am looking forward to the retreat.

Good Teacher, Lousy Student

Well, I've been 'teaching' at Brookline College since June 7,2010. Mostly it is student directed so far. By that I mean the students follow the books and self-learn. The instructor is there to answer any questions and to proctor the tests. Eventually the format is going to change so that the teacher will actually teach. That is what I am looking forward to. I have this one student that is all mine. In other words, she is the only one that has gotten far enough to be in the medical coding and billing part, which is what I teach. She likes to ask a lot of questions, so I am real happy with that.

I am tired of my own school, the classes I am taking for my own education. I just am not learning. The online format is just not for me. I want to quit but Tiger won't let me quit. Tiger goes on and on about how hard it was to find a job. How every thing wanted an RHIT. Quite frankly, I will never pass the RHIT test at the rate I am going. And I still have to take Algerbra, how am I ever going to pass THAT? I am so frustrated I could just lay down and cry. I have 2 paper due very, very soon and I haven't even gotten started on them. I have tried but I can't find the information online I need to do it. I have spent so much time researching the one due this week I won't have time to write even if I did find the information. I want to withdraw from the class but Tiger tells me I have to stay. Right now I have a high C in the class. What a downer. Guess I am just going to have to fake it and get an F on the paper.

On March 29, 2010 I was fired for not working well with my co-workers. Can you believe that? I am the one being treated badly and I get fired. Well it has been over a month. During that time I signed on with DeVry University to get an Associates Degree in Health Information Management. I can tell you my heart just isn't in it. I don't know what is wrong with me. A year ago I would have been all over it. Right now it is just a thing to do. I don't feel like I am learning anything. How do you get your heart into something? I just don't know right now. Oh well. I have work to do.

Love my second job. It is a real challenge that can frustrate me at times. Yesterday my bosslady called me and told me the doc and she are giving me a raise because they are so pleased with my work. That really made me feel good. I hope they feel the same way in a few months from now. Anyway, the work is good and makes me feel like a coder again. It is nice to get to use the books like they were meant to be used.

I am also going to get me some professional insurance just in case something goes haywire though. Better safe than sorry. I named my 'business' "Integrity Coding" just for fun and to have something to call myself.

Well, nothing better to talk about so best to end.

So January 1, 2010 I began my new job for Dr. Beall as an Interventioinal Radiology coding specialist. Well, I'm no specialist yet, but I hope to be one soon. Now Kathy Price wants me to take on a second doctor, I guess I might do it. Don't know if I should but I can only try. I could use the money and I can do it sitting down not staring at a computer.
It made me feel good that Kathy Price thought of me. I also like the safety net what with the contract being up in the air like it is. well, I better get to work.