Rain rain go away come again some other day. Actually, I love the rain as I have stated before, I just wish it wouldn't do it on the way to work, I don't much care starting my day drenched. I loved the lightning storm this morning though, it was quite striking, ha ha, pun intended.
I'm thinking about going for a long drive some one of these weekends and surprise Tiger with it. Kind of like show up with the Honda ready to go. Maybe head for Colorado again, see how far we can go in one night. I think there is a lake or two we could make it to. It would still be on the desert plains side, not the woody mountain side, but it would be a change. Either that or head to Arkansas and the Oachita National Park. I don't know, I just feel the need to travel. There is nothing I love more than being on the road and seeing the beauty of the earth pass me by. I love stopping in old Mom and Pop diners and getting to chat. I love camping and maybe chatting it up with other campers. Seeing the sky from a different perspective. I really feel a road trip coming on.

I love to travel. That is one thing that I miss with my job, I don't get to travel any more. Well, I better be careful with my complaints. I may get more than I wish for...with the threat of centralization over our heads and all. But I did like going to the different bases and bailing out the troubled spots. Turned out I was pretty good at soothing angry doctors. I liked getting to meet new folks and seeing different AFB's. Oh well, that is a thing of the past.

Talking of the past, my neices came this past weekend and visited the kitty cats. They seemed to enjoy themselves. I was quite pleased at how well the cats seemed to behave. Even Blackie seemed to not mind the children. Well, now I must go and get some work done.

I have to go help Mom change her bag today. That is always a little strange experience. I mean, Mom was always invincible, never needed help. Now she needs help and is vulnerable. It is kind of scarey for me. Makes her too human. I never saw an inch of my Mom's skin, now I see too much of it. I'm not complaining, its just that it is wierd to have Mom in such a vulnerable position.
I guess it makes me think that one of these days Mom is going to up and die on me and I dread the day. Mom is my pal and my rock. The world won't be right without her here. It's bad enough with Dad gone, though I've sort of gotten used to it now. But I can't imagine gettting used to the idea of Mom as being dead and gone. She's always been there when I've needed her from the silly things of life to the profound.
I know it is ridiculous to sit here and dread Mom's passing, but that is what bag changing day is for me. A reminder that one of these days she won't be with us any longer. Well, I'd best be getting in the car and head out now.

Subject of the day: boredom
I am very rarely ever bored. Life is too interesting to be bored. There is usually something going on, at least in my head, that keeps me entertained, but today I am bored. It is FaceBook's fault. I want to converse with Hippie on FB but she isn't on there and so I am frustrated and bored because I can't get my way.
I should be working on my carved boxes but I can't drum up enough interest to finish them up. I need to finish sanding them, but that requires me to sit outside in that humid heat, and I am just not up to that today. I do have a tiger I could be woodburning but it has its whole new challenges that I am not in the mood for so, I am bored. Mom used to say that boredom was just another way of saying "I don't want to do....whatever." Well, she was right. I just don't want to. So how do I get out of my funk? I don't know. I guess get over the fact that Hippie actually has a job that she has to work and can't play on FB all day. Get off my fat arse, grab the sandpaper and make myself go outside and sweat. Or at least grab that tiger by the tail and start a new woodburning challenge. I really need to finish those boxes. Oh well, we'll see my mouse and me.

So today Chuck came in to talk to us about the Air Force possibly centralizing my job. Very scary thought. If they do that, then I would have to concider moving to keep my job. Would I move? Yes, I think I would. I have never worked with insurance companies and I love working for the Air Force. Besides, I think I hear once that it would be centralized in Colorado Springs, which would be a totally cool place to live, I think. Not too far from home for visits. But all this is a bunch of speculation. I am terrified at the thought of losing my job. There isn't a place here in OK that would pay me nearly as much as I am making now. I don't know how I would survive a pay cut. Dear God please don't let this job go centralized and leave me jobless...I don't know if I could handle that right now. I need to buy a car so I can give Mom's car back to her, its not fair that I have it for so long. But I don't know how else I'd make it to the meetings. Tiger and I just can't afford to buy a car unless it is a real junker. God grant me the serenity.....this is so scary. I need this job just the way things are. But push comes to shove, I will aggresively pursue staying with the Air Force job even if it means moving. The family will probably be pissed off at me, but I like what I do and it is perfect for me. I worry about Mom, of course, she would be the one most disappointed, but I am sure she would understand. I would miss the family, but OK isn't far from all of the locations I think have been mentioned....ST. Louis, San Antionio, Colorado Springs. Mom would always be welcome to visit even. Oh well, no point counting chickens before they are even hatched. Enough worry for the day and all that. What happens will happen. God's will be done, God help me.